A Skinned Knee, Brick Wall & A Sunrise

I know many of my readers are parents, and are familiar with the crushed spirit of your child when the come to you, skinned knee and sobbing. Sometimes it isn't a skinned knee...sometimes it is a crushed spirit or broken heart.

When you see the pain and suffering in your child, your heart aches. You quickly pull out your emergency kit and prepare to clean and cover their wound. It doesn't matter if they are infants, toddlers or adults, we still feel the urgency to make the hurt go away. That's our job.

Sometimes the wound is larger than expected and the damage horrifying. What do we do? We scoop them up in our arms and try to comfort and assure them, it will be okay. While a skinned knee is easy to band aid, damage to their heart, mind, and spirit can be difficult to touch, to comfort. What happens when the damage is so great that even you can't imagine how this hurt will go away? How will they heal? How to deal with the pain and agony in your own heart over what has happened? Questions, right now I am struggling to find an answer.

Yes, one of my children has a "boo boo" and I can't fix it. I heard that blood curdling scream of pain and bolted to the rescue. Seeing/hearing the fear and pain in their face/voice, and the moment I saw the damaged, I questioned God. Where were you? How could he let this happen? My faith has again run into a brick wall. I have come to a screeching halt. I will not go into any details with anyone, so please respect my privacy. We're hanging by a thread here, faith is on the line.

I know of only a few things that I can do...

First, to ask all of you for your prayers. Pray for strength to get through this. Hope for a future. Understanding where God fits in all this, and to trust He is with me and my family during this time.

Second, Keep wearing my armor and maybe borrow one of yours for added protection.
Keep praying, for the moment I stop... Satan will have won. I have come to far to let that happen. I know that God is hurting right along with me, He is here by my side. As deep as the wound appears right now, without God, it would be much worse. In my prayers and search for answers I have come across the following.

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows.
2Corinthians 1:3-5

The current series in my church is on The Lies We Believe. I went back and listened to the sermon entitled, I Am Exempt From Pain. I realized sometimes as Christan's we tell ourselves that Christ is watching over us therefore we shouldn't be inflicted with pain and suffering. In this fallen world there is pain and suffering, it is unavoidable. But we can find comfort through Christ in prayer, scripture and His promise.

Pastor Dan read the following scripture:

To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surprisingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, My grace is sufficient for you, my power is made perfect in weakness. 2Corinthians 13:7-9

For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2Corinthians 12:10

It took a few times for me to hear and read before I understood exactly how to apply this to my circumstance. The thorn represents Satan's attack on my soul. He absolutely does not want me to turn or trust in God. Through my pain (weakness) God wants one thing from me, my total dependence upon Him. To trust this was not His plan. To know He was there, it could have been much worse, and He continues to be with me and my family. To cling to His promise to NEVER leave me, and to hold fast to my faith in Him to make me strong.

As a friend put it...Let Christ carry you. He will become the rock on which I can firmly stand. In my darkness, He will bring yet another beautiful sunrise.


Finally, Kisses, hugs and I love you always!

Mommy
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I just finished listening to another one of my favorite songs, Healer by Hillsong United.
I am filled with comfort and peace.

You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease

I trust in You
I trust in You

I believe You're my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my Portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need

Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands